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June 12 I guess I May As Well Get it Out of the Way NowWell I guess its about time I started talking about it, so here goes. Well, since the break up of my marriage and a particularly unpleasant relationship short but not very sweet, I have discovered something that I have for a long time suspected. Basically, I do not like men very much.
I have often made jokes in a tongue in cheek way, for many years, along the lines of I would become a lesbian only I don't fancy women, well, recently the light has turned itself on, and I have at last admitted that not only do I fancy women, I want only to be with another woman in a relationship way.
Since my awakening to a rainbow styley way, I have had a couple of short - mm well not sure I would call them relationships, but for the want of a better word, I will use it - relationships with women, and its been wonderful. Everything that I have been looking for in a hetrosexual relationship has been there, and I am just sorry that I had not questioned my sexuality sooner. Lets face it I have had a number of opportunities, but in each situation I have been in a relationship with a guy and I hate infidelity, so I never ventured down that road, and now I look back Goddess, I wish I had, as the women in question were lovely, and I would love to be in a position to meet them again, but alas, I cant see that happening. So what to do.
My, encounters have been very much undercover as well as under the covers, as the Island is a very small place and I am not ready to come out to my friends and family yet, and also, I have not managed to find anyone I really like on the Island, they have been people who have been visiting the Island, or I have met online and they have come over, but due to various things they haven't worked out, long distance relationships are not really very easy. And although I know where to go, I am pretty sure I will not meet who I am looking for in a club or pub. I am not really one for one nighters, and to me that seems to be what most over here are looking for. Now, please if there are any Manx lesbians/bisexuals on the Island and they happen to be reading this, feel free to put me straight on this as a nice relationship with a local girl/woman, would be perfect, and would be and inducement to come out officially.
Trouble is, I have met someone online who I really like, but being relatively new at this game I am very wary of being upfront and telling them how I feel as the last thing I want is to spoil a great friendship by admitting my feelings if they do not feel the same way. So I need advice, what do I do??? I really want to be with someone, but I am not making a point of looking, but should someone come along then maybe the online thing would just remain a friendship, which would be a shame as I am sure we would be perfect together, but at the moment it seems to be a bit of a dead end.
So how do I get involved in 'the scene' in a discreet manner, help, please someone, gotta lot of love to give, but am afraid to offer it to the woman I would like too and can't seem to find anyone near here who I like. A quandry indeed, I am sure getting guys wasn't this hard. So if there are any people who can help me with my predicament, please, please get in touch!!!!!
Oh and question of the day, why did I put this in the heading Health and Wellness? Well, basically because I couldn't find anything else that was remotely suitable!!!! June 11 Things we do for that bit extra cash!!!Well as we know I am not an avid blogger, no idea why but guess always seem to have better things to do. Well today I came across this thing Pay for Blog, so I thought I could do that, I am sure I could spout out my musings on a regular basis and hopefully get paid for it, so I joined. Trouble is being a bit of a numpty, haven't got a clue what on earth I have signed up for. So its a tad worrying, but life is not exactly full of exitement at the moment so I thought I would 'suck it and see' as they say.
I just hope they dont mean that I have to pay to blog, and that they pay me, - yeah thats how dumb I am lol!!!!!
Still, try anything once so going to give it a go. Have to go through my blogs to see whats on there as dont want people to make a have a bad impression of my ramblings, and they start writing like mad, so watch out people, you never know what I am going to decide to ramble about. Of course slander is out of the question, cant afford a lawyer, but if u do something daft, well, hey, its dog eat dog, but the names will be changed to protect the innocent, well if they are people I know they arent that innocent, but you know what I am saying!!!
So wish me luck, and get ready for my daily mutterings!! May 13 OMGAs u know I am a Wiccan, and as I was just writing my previous piece of nonsense, just noticed that the so called Wiccan in my background pic is wearing her pentagram upside down, which any Wiccan worth their salt knows that people who do that worship him downstairs, and I dont mean the smelly old guy in flat 2, I mean the man that doesn't exist and we dont mention his name, but is supposedly red, carries a pitch fork and is horny, well, has horns, but u know what I mean!!!
So I must do a ritual to bless my pc and make sure no trouble in the form of viruses, come to it. I am not going to remove the pic as I think the girl is quite fit!!!! So apologies to all my fellow Wiccans out there, but us single girls have to have something worth looking at and well, in the absense of any hunky males I have a beautiful demon worshiper instead, Hope u understand sisters!!
Brightest blessings ExpensesWell I am currently entering every possible competition on the telly that involves cash as after hearing about the MP who has put in an expense claim to have his moat cleaned I am absolutely detemined to get a moat around my top floor flat lol!!! Seems to be the in thing to have. Trouble is I am a bit concerned as I am currently on sickness benefit that I will not have the money to get it cleaned. I am just hoping that the DSS will let me have an expence account or they will give me a loan to do this.
OOOOHHHHHH gosh sorry gonna have to make this a short one, I have just noticed a speck of dust on the chandelier in my study that the cleaner must have missed so I must get in a contract cleaner to sort it out as I am expecting Prince William round for tea and cakes later on today and have to have the old pile looking at its best.
Will let u know if I win anything and if I can find a moat building firm in the Yellow Pages, partiularly as it will have to be on scaffolding, mmmm thats another thing, wonder if I will need planning permission?????????
Oh isnt Irony a wonderful form of humour!!!!!!!!!!
Brightest blessings
March 28 Just a Note!!Well Its hardly front page news or politics, but Its news anyway, that I have broken my silence since Jan to actually get my backside together and post a blog, or a random scribbling that represents a blog.
Have been busy writing short stories, hopefully for publication if I can get a mag to take them, but all I will say about that is that the content is not the sort to be put on here, so by that you will get the gist of what type of stories they are lol!!!
And if anyone wishes to offer to proof read for me, well I have to say that the position has been filled, so sorry no can do, but it will be posted if and when I have a bit of success. So u can all buy the magazine and read for yourself!!!
Other than than, well, I have not really been up to a gr8 deal, just generally living life and being permanently skint, hence the writing so I can get a bit of extra spends as I a determined to get a holiday this year even if it is only to the mainland. Trouble is whenever I mention it, on friend of another says u must come and see me, and so far it looks like I am going to have to split myself into at least two pieces to get to everywhere in a week, but one definite is Bournemouth, my old stomping ground, thing is, will I want to come back to the Island, mmmm probably not, but at the end of the day I dont really have any particular reason to stay here, so, its a definite possibility that Bournmouth may yet become a new start, time will tell, but the more I think about it the more the idea appeals to me. MMM Bournemouth in the summer, blissfull, lets just see eh!!!! And the thought of all my friends being just a train ride away, well, that is just brilliant, my exile on the Isle of Man, as much as I love the place coming to an end, and back to real life, ooooohhhhhhh temptation, just have to get the cash, so best start writing like a writing thing, and get these stories sold!!!!
So watch this space!!!!
xxxx Welcome in my friends to a page that never ends, Im so glad you could attend, come inside, come inside!!!!!!
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